Pure Arrogance

I am a student somewhere in Germany, studying some sort of engineering.

Pure arrogance. That's what got me starting to write this piece. I am a very arrogant person. Arrogance comes from confidence and confidence comes for certainty.

I was definitely certain of something. Was definitely. Not anymore. Now, that certainty is slowly tuned down, so is the confidence. But the arrogance is still there.

That's the cool part.

I am writing this to share my experience. And sometimes I feel lonely and there is nobody to really listen to me rambling about all this nonsense I have in my head.

By doing this, I get to pretend that I am reading a piece of writing written by someone else and pretend to not know what the content of the writing is and pretend to sympathize.

The funny thing is all this acting and hypocricy happens in my small imaginary mind-playground in my head.

Another piece of truth; I am scared. I am scared of the future. I am scared of what to come. I am no longer excited with what to come. I am tired of being the outsider.

I used to have this optimism. That wasn't so long ago, really. But yeah, we shall see from here I think. My life right now looks like a movie that drags the part before the main person gets to be happy of himself.

No, I am not sad. I am worried. I am worried about not being able to overcome these obstacles.

What a way to start a blog. Cool.